Tired

Somehow, I am very tired of all of this.  I'm tired of fighting my depression, I'm tired of waking up each day to another string of meaningless and empty hours, days, maybe years.  Tired of being frustrated, of having to battle for every little thing, trying to find something positive. And tired of being scared of my cancer.

I'm just...tired of it all.

Everything good that was happening has gone; my studies and career, writing, health - all gone.  And maybe the Cat D too.

I'm tired.

message from the Editor:

It is heart warming to see such an overwhelming show of support for Ben's PhD. There is over £500 in the pot already! I look forward to giving Ben the good news when I visit him later today.